*sniffle*

Kevin's brother just called here to invite me to his wife's bday dinner tomorrow. Unfortunately I have to pack so I had to decline. We talked for a little bit tho. Now remember this is the brother that I didn't like when i first met Kevin. He told me today that he's really proud of us with getting this house and everything and he's really glad that Kevin met me. He said he's not seen Kevin this happy in a long long time. Of course this made me cry. I'm such a wuss lol. So, if i ever had any doubts with the whole diatribe in email i got yesterday, they were helped to be wiped away by what his brother said today. (as well as the long talks I had with Ricky yesterday while we packed...Ricky's his "ex")(I use that term loosely cuz Larry swears they were never a couple and Ricky says Larry wanted them to be but Ricky didn't want to move in with him)

And as an update, he emailed me again today lol. Telling me to pay him back $$ I owed him from Xmas. I forgot about it to be honest. No big. I copied his addy down that he sent and will send it when i can. Didn't even respond. It's not worth it. He also sent me a list of what "medication" he's taking (which i know is a false list cuz he didn't list Prozac which i know he takes cuz he offered to give me some) and he misquoted my email to him and something else i can't remember now. Obviously not that important. It's okay...I've already deleted all his emails and removed him from my Y!M buddy list and put him on ignore and put him as seeing me permanently offline. Mostly cuz I knew he's continue to harrass me even after he told me to not email him cuz he'd delete it.

Now I have to go pack. If i get the bedroom closet done today I'll be happy. It's a bad day today. I'm feeling drained. I'll live tho. And my reward will be going to see Mel-Fish's sister gues bartending tonight @ Somewhere if i get it done;)

Drama via Email

So I wasn't going to blog about this but I simply have to. Yesterday I was excited and sent an email to someone I thought was a friend about the house:

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Magik Jaz to Larry
Jun 28 (1 day ago)

we got our house! we should b moved in by tuesday

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Greene, Larry (L.E.) to me
Jun 28 (1 day ago)

Good, now you need to get a real job so you can keep it! Congrats! I hope to come and see it some day soon. Can't wait.

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Magik Jaz to Larry
Jun 28 (1 day ago)

i have a real job :p~

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Greene, Larry (L.E.) to me
Jun 28 (1 day ago)
Doing what?

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Magik Jaz to Larry
Jun 28 (1 day ago)

hosting karaoke's a real job! i already have 2 jobs out there working on more

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HERE'S WHERE IT GETS GOOD!!!! (Italics are my thoughts added in)
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Greene, Larry (L.E.) to me
Jun 28 (1 day ago)

Ok hate to ALWAYS have to be a realist but the older I get the more realistic I get. If your mother or Kevin wont tell you I will. Karaoke is something you do as a part-time job, it has no health benefits, no 401k, no dental, no short and long term disability and pays very little....also, you dont even pay income tax or social security out of the $50 bucks you make and therefore will be indigent if you get old if you are no longer with Kevin. I think Jaz you and many many other people live in a dreamworld and never ever like to hear the truth. Snap out of it, you are a very intelligent woman although self centered and selfish person at times. How do you think people have nice cars, nice clothes, go on vacations without borrowing money from others for the planefare......? They work, they work non stop so that they can have all of that. I know you dont want to hear this but I can no longer sit idly by and listen to such utter nonsense coming from your mouth. Someone needs to tell you and ONLY a real friend would......go get a real job like everyone else in the world that has something. (Now...if he were that concerned about me getting a real job, why didn't he offer to help me like he offered to help Anna and Jerry? He practically begged them for their resumes so he could "see what he could do" While not once did he evenr ask me...not that I need his help, just stating a point) Think about someone else BESIDES yourself once in a while too, if you don't get a job for your own self esteem get it to help Kevin out with affording a home. Sorry Jaz but I can take only so much bull and I have to bring ohters back to reality. I only wish I could sit and entertain people while drinking while I work.........that's not a job its getting paid very little for a night out at a bar.............My own personal opinion that I will keep to myself is that you are addicted to the internet and that's why you don't work.

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After crying most of the day about that email while I was packing, I finally sat down at the computer and after much typing and backspacing i sent:
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Magik Jaz to Larry
More options Jun 28 (22 hours ago)

I've thought for hours how to respond to this email. It really hurt my feelings. All i can say is I am happy with my life and to the best of my knowledge Kevin is happy as well. I have viable employment. I have insurance thru my fiance's job. We have a house and a car. And at the end of the day all our bills get paid.
Jazmyn

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I assumed that would be the end of it. But I was wrong...before I got packing today I checked my emails and:
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Greene, Larry (L.E.) to me
8:58 am (6 hours ago)

I didn't know you were that out of touch with reality, you need some help Jaz.........apparently you want to live the rest of your life scraping by, have fun. I can't believe your response, you need some help. When you get it, give me a call, I can't really associate with friends who only care about themselves and live in dreamworlds. YOUR feelings are HURT? What about mine, you never ask how I feel, never do anything but talk about your own life and how miserable it is. You need help.

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Magik Jaz to Larry
1:55 pm (1 hour ago)

That's fine. I don't want your friendship anymore anyway. I don't need someone in my life who is trying to bring me down. I know you've said these things behind my back before along with many other mean and nasty things. I've heard you say them about Anna and Jerry and Ricky and everyone else you know. You have continually been two-faced and I've been naive enough to think it didn't pertain to me or Kevin. I was proved wrong yesterday.

I continually ask you how you are doing when i email you. Almost every email I have asks you that. I don't complain about my miserable life...you always complain how sick you are and how you hate michigan, how uncultured everyone else is here ...oh! and how no one showed up at your bday party.

Enjoy your medicated lying two faced life. Enjoy your husband and Anna and Jerry. I hope they all bring you happiness and fulfillment. I hope they never find out what a manipulator, a lier and how two faced you are. ! never want to see or hear from you again. You obviously never were my friend and never will be. I'll find another way to get my wedding dress. Don't call me. Don't email me. Don't IM me.

And just so you know, I've been trying to stay your friend even after you and Ricky broke up. I've refused to listen to anything negative he has had to say about you. I assumed anything said was bitterness from a relationship. So don't try to blame this on any friendship I have with him. This is all you.

Goodbye,
Jazmyn

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Surely THIS is the end of it! I mean i said no more emails etc right? WRONG!!! (italics in this email are my comments to the ridiculous statements made)
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Greene, Larry (L.E.) to greenel, me
2:03 pm (1 hour ago)

You are lazy and need help girl.........no one likes to hear the truth but you are very selfish and no you NEVER ask how I am. Actions speak louder than words, you have done NOTHING for me in the many years I have known you, you only take, you never EVER give. I haven't said a damn thing behind your back, not my style at all and never cared to. You are just making up more excuses so you dont have to work like the rest of us (how in the HELL does me saying he talked behind my back keep me from working? That doesn't even make any sense)......imagine how hard it is for me to work every day with MS...while you sit there 24/7/365 playing games on your computer. I have no time for that, we have nothing in common. How am I a minipulator, liar and two faced.......like I said, just ANOTHER long line of excuses so you don't have to work, (AGAIN! How does what he is affect my ability to work or not work) I am none of those things, manipulator's sometimes don't work and lay around all day cause they manipulate their partners (SOMETIMES! you said SOMETIMES! Othertimes they try and manipulate the people around them so they feel superior and make everyone around them feel like shit) ........take care, don't email me again, I will just delete it. GET A JOB! I hope you never get sick and have to take any meds just to get through the day, to make fun of that in an email will bring you very bad luck.......shows how rediculous you are. Shame shame, pick on someone's illness, what a jerk. Lets hope you dont get sick some day. (I wasn't picking on him having MS (which i still doubt...i mean a couple years ago he told everyone he had a brain tumor and was gonna die in 2 months..when he didn't he moved) I was commenting on the fact that he takes Prozac. He even offered to give me some. note that I don't think there's anything wrong with prozac...but I found it amusing he told me I need help when he's the one medicated)

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I know there's someone out there that's going to get all defensive because of the content in these emails. Know that i didn't mention you out of meanness or spite. But I think that you are going to go back to him to tell him what I did online and that's fine. These are all his words in each email. I only added italics where I wanted to make a point.

can you believe this? Like i said, I cried almost all day yesterday. today I'm fine. I'm not even mad. Oh well. I haven't even seen him in months. How is losing his friendship (which apparently he never was a friend to begin with) going to hurt me. It's not. The only things I have to thank him for are the help he gave us when I almost went to jail because of being sentenced to a tether again when money was tight and for introducing me to Ricky.

I found out yesterday thru conversations that this isn't the first time he's said these horrible things about me. That apparently during the time last year when he was throwing parties every Saturday and I couldn't go to one he started talking about me then. About how selfish and lazy I am. And about how cheesy my wedding ideas were. (HOW DARE HE!!!) That's the reason one of the women never went back. She said "If he's saying that stuff about her and they were supposed to be close, what does he say about the rest of us when we aren't here" I've heard him say things about people and be absolutely horrid...but to their faces he's their best friend. I was just naive to think he wasn't doing this to me.

WE GOT A HOUSE!

We got our house! OMG I was stressed over it for days! The realtor said we wouldn't need $$ for closing, then said we would need $400 PLUS the $600 for house insurance and plus other bills i just couldn't fathom how we would do it! But we did and today we got the keys!!! So we're starting the move tomorrow. Kevin's taking boxes a carload at a time for the next few days cuz it's on his way to and from work. We called and got DTE transferred over on Friday (which means no hot water for us for a few days) gotta call SBC tomorrow. Gotta pack up the bedroom tomorrow and ricky's gonna come over wednesday to help pack. Gotta call Two Men & a truck tomorrow. Gotta send $$ to my sister. Gotta go to the post office and change our address. OMG we're moving in a week!!!!!