I'm such a loser

Kevin has such faith in me. He gave me a simple assignment. Give him a sample Menu for the Mint Cafe that he could take back to them. He gave me the original menu and his revisions and said to do whatever I wanted to redesign it (within reason) and I can't. I'm such a complete and utter moron. I can't figure out how to do it. I can't do graphics. I don't know what to do. He's gonna be so disappointed and i don't know what to tell him. I'm crying so hard right now i can hardly see the computer screen.

Apparently I'm not nearly as smart as I thought I was. I'm just pretending. Why even bother with anything. I totally suck at everything I do. I half ass it all. I'll never be a web designer ... I'll never be able to do graphics. Hell I'm lucky if my frigging clothes match right now.

I can't believe i can't do this simple menu. You know what... lemme take a breath and look at it again. Maybe i can figure it out. Maybe I'm totally overreacting and I'll end up being the genius Kevin seems to think I am...altho i highly doubt it. Maybe I'll just go play some Slingo and lose more brain cells.

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I just took a look at my blog and man oh man I've been nothing but depressed since November 2nd. I really need to do something with my life or I'm going to end up institutionalized. I can't tell Kevin cuz he worries enough about me. I just don't know what to do.

okay, off to try and tackle this stupid menu again. *hugs*