I found out late last night that a dear friend is suffering poor health and may not live long. He's younger than I. I've known him since around 1996, so almost 20 years. I am devastated.
Also today was the funeral of the baby sister of a friend I've known since 2 nd grade (off and on). She was 34 and mother of 4 girls, all under 10. My heart aches for that family. If I lost my baby sister (who is close to the same age) I would be inconsolable.
I've been crying off and on all night and day.
I'm really afraid I might slip into a dark place emotionally. I didn't expect the funeral to hit me so hard. All I can do is hope for the best. And remember to take my happy pills.