Nothing Major

Well I finally messaged my long time ex on myspace. I ran across his profile months ago and have been toying with the idea, but I know he's not going to be happy to hear from me. We broke up on very bad terms. It was a shame cuz we were pretty perfect together at the time, but in the end it all works out cuz I now have Kevin. Anyway...all I said was happy holidays and that i hoped his family was well and him too. If he responds fine. If not, fine as well.

I remember the day we broke up. It was about 13 years ago. I was living with him at the time. (in his mom& stepdad's house)I had gone over a friend's house (he also lived with his parents) and I got a phone call from my ex asking me to come home we needed to talk. I asked him what was up (he called me a couple times if i remember correctly) and he told me he read my journal and was upset by it. It said something like "poor (his name) nobody likes him" ...which was out of context...I was talking about how my boss was trying to fix me up with her son (at least I thought she was) anyway...that totally pissed me off. My journal was private. He said he was looking for paper to write on and just happened to come across it. I flipped. I didn't ask for much privacy (in his parents home) but my journal. I was uber protective of them at the time. Not because of anything written in them was bad per se, but because they were mine.

So the next day i moved out and back into my mom's house. I cried buckets over him. Thank the gods and goddesses for my friends. And I remember his mom told me that even tho we weren't together anymore it didn't affect our relationship. I loved her so much! I still miss her. I'd love to invite her to my wedding, but there will be drinking there and she and her hubby are AA.

It was tough cuz we shared almost all our friends. But I promised Jayson a long time ago that I would never make him (or anyone else) choose between me and someone else so I didn't. It was hard for everyone, but somehow we all managed.

I really missed him for a long time. He was perfect for me at that point in my life. Not anymore. Kevin's perfect for me now and for always.

Anyway, I hope he's well and doesn't hate me too much.

And in case you still read this...Beth I'm sorry for jumping all over you when you commented so long ago. Lots of bad memories came flooding back and it wasn't good. But if you can forgive me for what you percieve were wrongdoings on my part, I can forgive you for what I consider wrongdoings on yours. *hugs*