Todays' the day

Today @ 2:30pm we have an appt. to put Kikyo down. It's going to be one of the hardest days of my life. I've pretty much been crying all day and night. I had a dream last night that she was her old self. I woke up half expecting her to be cured. But she wasn't. So i called the vet and made the appt. and now I'm just waiting. Giving her as much love as she'll let me. She lets me, then after a few minutes her dying instincts kick in and she looks at me with terror in her face and starts to back away. So I leave her for a few and come back when I see she's calmer. I'm gonna miss her with all my heart and soul.

Anyway, I ranted a bunch on my kitty blog kikyokitty.blogspot.com if you want to look. It's not going anywhere. Heaven knows I need a place to display all my kikyo piccies.