My day is not going any better. Kevin just got home. I called him to apologize to no avail. He never called me back and now he's holed up in our room. Fuck him then. He has no idea what is going on with me at all. None. He leaves here in the morning before I wake up and is home an hour before he goes to sleep. I'm here all day by myself with no company but a tv a computer and a cat. All day everyday that's all i have. I don't even have interesting stories to tell about me anymore cuz i don't do anything. It's to fucking cold outside to do anything, but even if i could go for a walk i can't cuz I don't have any money to buy walking shoes. The only decent winter coat i have came from 7 years ago that i bought for myself. And I'm getting fatter by the day. And to top it all off I haven't had sex with my fiance in over 6 months. I don't even know if i want to get married right now. I really really don't.