So tonight ... well last night now... we went over to Paul's house and hung out with him and julie and watched a videotape of our junior year musical production of "Carnival!" It was amazing to watch. I'm sure Julie and Kevin were bored to tears, but i was enthralled. I can't believe how pretty and skinny i was. It gives me incentive to start working on myself more first of all...but it makes me feel better about how i was in high school. I never felt good enough. Looking back tho, I was pretty and I sang well and I got lots of applause at the end of the show... once I lose some weight I think I may try out for some Community theatre productions again.

I borrowed the tape so my mom could see it. I also borrowed a tape of the 86 xmas concert and 87 mayfestival. OMG! I cannot even believe it. It brought back a ton of memories and I was shocked at how many people I remembered watching that thing. And lol at the end of the Mayfestival the choir did the traditional "senior song" (for which everyone gets teary-eyed since it's the last performance of all the senior year students) and i was in the background hugging my friend Paula Cannatella... then the choir did a song after that and it's funny cuz there's all kinds of choir robes...chorus is standing to the side... and there I am right smack in the front row of the alto section (right hand side)...the only one without a choir robe on. I had some guts :p~ When the song ends I'm hugging the one and talking to her, so I assume we were good friends and that's why i did it, altho i don't remember being THAT good of friends with her. Oh well lol. At least I remember her name. Now THAT would be embarrassing. Well, maybe not. I mean, it is ...OMG SEVENTEEN YEARS AGO!!!! Now I feel old. i was only FOURTEEN!!!!! and only SIXTEEN in the video of Carnival!!!! OMG!!! Now I must go and cry.
*hugs*