I'm so depressed. I have to call my dad later on today to ask for money. I'm not depressed cuz i have to ask him... i'm depressed cuz of all the money we have to give out. SOmetimes I think it would be better for me to go to jail. I have about 55 days to go on 60. I'm having no problem so far with the drinking... altho my mom called me today with a "buzz" and it annoyed me. Being sober and dealing with drunk people is no picnic. Kevin's actually worried about me on Friday doing karaoke. I should be okay tho. If I feel I can't do it then I'll make arrangements for the remainder of my time. There's no way I'm screwing up. I do and it means jail and it looks bad on my record. I don't need anything else for this judge to hold against me.

We went thru our monies tonight. We're just 100$ short of being able to make it with paying all our bills due this weekend (including the $165 for my tether) and having some to live on. I don't want to ask my mom. I ask her for everything and she does too much for me anyway.

OKay, I gotta go to sleep. *hugs*