I'm feeling a little better than I did when I first got home. It's tough. I'm gonna make some phone calls tomorrow and see if I can't borrow the money. Maybe get an advance from work. Maybe ask my dad and Denise if I can borrow a couple bucks. We can borrow on Kevin's check and get an advance, but that will JUST cover my tether fees to begin. Then we need to pay the phone bill (cuz I need one for the tether) and we also have Kevin's bills to pay. The upside of everything is that hopefully I'll be done with the court system when I'm done with this. The downside is of course the money. And I need to talk to my probation officer to have him find someplace for me to go for counseling. There's no way I can afford it now. Not with putting out almost 1000$ in a week. That's more than we bring home in 2 weeks. The judge doesn't care. He'd just as soon see me go to jail. I know it.

SO anyway, I also yelled at my mom today, which I know I shouldn't have. She was driving me crazy with stupid questions and told me Papa wanted me to call him. He wanted to tell me about these lawyers that supposedly work out of a church in Detroit offering free legal advice to people who need it. They're ordered to do it by the court systems. Yeah. Lots of good that does me now. And lemme tell you. I've heard that story come out of him AND my mama before. But what church is it? Don't know. What days' are they there? Don't know. It's like this urban legend. Besides, what the hell good does that do me now? I already went to court. I already got sentenced. It's not gonna mean a damn thing. I'll call him tomorrow anyway just to say hi. I don't want to. But I will.

My comments thing isn't working either. And I can't get the site where I got them from to open for me. I keep getting A "page cannot be displayed" message. *grrr* Oh well. I know everyone loves me and wishes me the best. There's only like 3 people that actually read this thing anyway. Heck I don't even know why they do half the time.

Okay I'm getting bitter again. I need to go to sleep. Love you all!!!