omg. I had this dream this morning right before i woke up. It had this guy in it i knew in High School. His name was Eddie. I can't remember his last name. In the dream he had a last name, but it was wrong. I remember that. It was something like O'Shay in the dream, but I think his name was something that started with an "F" in RL. Anyhoo, he was gorgeous! He had this toussled blacky-brown hair and the most beautiful blue eyes. He was in choir with me, but even before choir we kinda hung in HS. I think he was in chorus and that's how we met. I absolutely adored him. We used to hug all the time. Remember that in high school I was pretty much naive. Hugging was the most i ever did really. I don't think i even kissed anyone until college. (Ed James...but that's another story)

So anyway, we met up again a few years ago (a few years after high school) when I was working at 7-11 as a cashier. He still had the prettiest blue eyes *sigh* So we kinda hung a little bit and I discovered that we really didn't have much in common. Isn't that sad? Sometimes the fantasy is so much better than the reality. Of course, that didn't mean we couldn't "do stuff" ... but we didn't. :( I totally missed out on that opportunity. I think i was "seeing" someone else kinda seriously, I'm not sure. The timeline is kinda fuzzy. So last night/ this morning I had this dream (like i was saying) and I was still with Kevin, but I was working karaoke someplace and Jan (my old boss) came in and told me that Eddie didn't love me and wasn't going to marry me. I had apparently met him karaoke and he told me that he did love me and I was making wedding plans to be with him (unbeknownst to him). Well, when Jan told me this i was devastated. So i went home to be with Kevin but he was sleeping, so I was hanging watching TV and Eddie came by (don't you love when dreams make sense :p~) and I asked him if it was true and he didn't love me. He said no, it wasn't true. Then we went into the bathroom and started kissing. *yum* ... then i woke up.

I have no idea where this dream came from. I haven't thought about Eddie for YEARS! (obviously, I can't even remember his last name) and now I can't get him out of my head! I wonder if this means I'll see him soon?

You ever have those people in your life that you just want to kiss? Nothing else. But you just look at someone and just ownder how they kiss? I have 3 (as of this moment) My laundry room guy James, Kevin who used to come up to karaoke at CDogz, and Eddie whats-his-name. I just KNOW that it would be good. And i have no intention of ever following up on this. I love Kevin and i love the way he kisses and i love everything about him completely. Just fantasies.

OH! make that 4! Mike from PA ;)