I love the show Will & Grace. Everytime I watch it I think of Jayson, my t'hy'la in California. And I always miss him so much. Will & Grace should be me and him if we actually lived in the same place. I could totally see us living together & annoying the hell out of others around us. & tonight's show was a replay of the Will & grace where they decide to have a baby together & that could very well be us too. I just think about it. I mean, I know I always say I don't want any kids. And that's one thing that Kevin and I seem to agree upon. And this doesn't mean that I love Kevin any less, but I could almost see me & Jay in the situation where we would come to the same decision to have a baby together. I mean, come one Jayson would make such a good daddy.

But, the only way that would even be slightly possible would be if I moved out there. Because I know he doesn't want to move back here. And right now I don't know that I want to do that.

But I shouldn't be thinking about that!! That's not why I started this post. I was missing my Jayson. I hope he misses me sometimes too. I haven't talked to him in sooooo long. I know he's okay. He'd let me know somehow if he weren't. I sure could use him here with me tho. I know how selfish that is and how selfish that sounds. I miss my friend tho. I don't get to see him nearly enough.

MAN!!! It just sucks sometimes. I know I have Kevin & I have a few really good friends here in MI. I mean, there were times in my life I couldn't have made it without Anna or Val & Melody or my mom even. But the 2 people I've been closest to in my life the longest are so far away from me and i HATE it!!! If only there were some way to make Quantico, Virginia (where my sister is) & Los Angeles, California (where my jayson is) close enough to be able to pop in and say hi every once in awhile. *sigh* Times like this i wish for transporters. (the st geek in me coming thru)

well, I need to get back to my NeoPets & earn some NeoPoints for my babies. And stop being so sad or else Kevin's going to worry about me when he gets home from work.