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Joe R. Lansdale, Totally Free Stories
Joe R. Lansdale, Totally Free Stories: By the Hair of the Head
For Charlie Grant
The lighthouse was gray and brutally weathered, kissed each morning by a cold, salt spray. Perched there among the rocks and sand, it seemed a last, weak sentinel against an encroaching sea; a relentless, pounding surf that had slowly swallowed up the shoreline and deposited it in the all-consuming belly of the ocean.
Once the lighthouse had been bright-colored, candy-striped like a barber’s pole, with a high beacon light and a horn that honked out to the ships on the sea. No more. The lighthouse director, the last of a long line of sea watchers, had cashed in the job ten years back when the need died, but the lighthouse was now his and he lived there alone, bunked down nightly to the tune of the wind and the raging sea.
Below he had renovated the bottom of the tower and built rooms, and one of these he had locked away from all persons, from all eyes but his own.
I came there fresh from college to write my novel, dreams of being the new Norman Mailer dancing in my head. I rented in with him, as he needed a boarder to help him pay for the place, for he no longer worked and his pension was as meager as stale bread.
High up in the top was where we lived, a bamboo partition drawn between our cots each night, giving us some semblance of privacy, and dark curtains were pulled round the thick, foggy windows that traveled the tower completely around.
By day the curtains were drawn and the partition was pulled and I sat at my typewriter, and he, Howard Machen, sat with his book and his pipe, swelled the room of gray smoke the thickness of his beard. Sometimes he rose and went below, but he was always quiet and never disturbed my work.
It was a pleasant life. Agreeable to both of us. Mornings we had coffee outside on the little railed walkway and had a word or two as well, then I went to my work and he to his book, and at dinner we had food and talk and brandies; sometimes one, sometimes two, depending on mood and the content of our chatter.
We sometimes spoke of the lighthouse and he told me of the old days, of how he had shone that light out many times on the sea. Out like a great, bright fishing line to snag the ships and guide them in; let them follow the light in the manner that Theseus followed Ariadne’s thread.
"Was fine," he’d say. "That pretty old light flashing out there. Best job I had in all my born days. Just couldn’t leave her when she shut down, so I bought her."
"It is beautiful up here, but lonely at times."
"I have my company."
I took that as a compliment, and we tossed off another brandy. Any idea of my writing later I cast aside. I had done four good pages and was content to spit the rest of the day away in talk and dreams.
"You say this was your best job," I said as a way of conversation. "What did you do before this?"
He lifted his head and looked at me over the briar and its smoke. His eyes squinted against the tinge of the tobacco. "A good many things. I was born in Wales. Moved to Ireland with my family, was brought up there, and went to work there. Learned the carpentry trade from my father. Later I was a tailor. I’ve also been a mason—note the rooms I built below with my own two hands—and I’ve been a boat builder and a ventriloquist in a magician’s show."
"A ventriloquist?"
"Correct," he said, and his voice danced around me and seemed not to come from where he sat.
"Hey, that’s good."
"Not so good really. I was never good, just sort of fell into it. I’m worse now. No practice, but I’ve no urge to take it up again."
"I’ve an interest in such things."
"Have you now?"
"Yes."
"Ever tried a bit of voice throwing?"
"No. But it interests me. The magic stuff interests me more. You said you worked in a magician’s show?"
"That I did. I was the lead-up act."
"Learn any of the magic tricks, being an insider and all?"
"That I did, but that’s not something I’m interested in," he said flatly.
"Was the magician you worked for good?"
"Damn good, m’boy. But his wife was better."
"His wife?"
"Marilyn was her name. A beautiful woman." He winked at me. "Claimed to be a witch."
"You don’t say?"
"I do, I do. Said her father was a witch and she learned it and inherited it from him."
"Her father?"
"That’s right. Not just women can be witches. Men too." We poured ourselves another and exchanged sloppy grins, hooked elbows, and tossed it down.
"And another to meet the first," the old man said and poured. Then: "Here’s to company." We tossed it off.
"She taught me the ventriloquism, you know," the old man said, relighting his pipe.
"Marilyn?"
"Right. Marilyn."
"She seems to have been a rather all-around lady."
"She was at that. And pretty as an Irish morning."
"I thought witches were all old crones, or young crones. Hook noses, warts ..."
"Not Marilyn. She was a fine-looking woman. Fine bones, agate eyes that clouded in mystery, and hair the color of a fresh-robbed hive."
"Odd she didn’t do the magic herself. I mean, if she was the better magician, why was her husband the star attraction?"
"Oh, but she did do magic. Or rather she helped McDonald to look better than he was, and he was some good. But Marilyn was better.
"Those days were different. m’boy. Women weren’t the ones to take the initiative, least not openly. Kept to themselves. Was a sad thing. Back then it wasn’t thought fittin’ for a woman to be about such business. Wasn’t ladylike. Oh, she could get sawed in half, or disappear in a wooden crate, priss and look pretty, but take the lead? Not on your life!"
I fumbled myself another brandy. "A pretty witch, huh?"
"Ummmm."
"Had the old pointed hat and broom passed down, so to speak?" My voice was becoming slightly slurred.
"It’s not a laughin’ matter, m’boy." Machen clenched the pipe in his teeth.
"I’ve touched a nerve, have I not? I apologize. Too much sauce."
Machen smiled. "Not at all. It’s a silly thing, you’re right To hell with it."
"No, no, I’m the one who spoiled the fun. You were telling me she claimed to be the descendant of a long line of witches."
Machen smiled. It did not remind me of other smiles he had worn. This one seemed to come from a borrowed collection.
"Just some silly tattle is all. Don’t really know much about it, just worked for her, m’boy." That was the end of that. Standing, he knocked out his pipe on the concrete floor and went to his cot.
For a moment I sat there, the last breath of Machen’s pipe still in the air, the brandy still warm in my throat and stomach. I looked at the windows that surrounded the lighthouse, and everywhere I looked was my own ghostly reflection. It was like looking out through the compound eyes of an insect, seeing a multiple image.
I turned out the lights, pulled the curtains and drew the partition between our beds, wrapped myself in my blanket, and soon washed up on the distant shore of a recurring dream. A dream not quite in grasp, but heard like the far, fuzzy cry of a gull out from land.
It had been with me almost since moving into the tower. Sounds, voices . . .
A clunking noise like peg legs on stone . . . a voice, fading in, fading out . . . Machen’s voice, the words not quite clear, but soft and coaxing . . . then solid and firm: "Then be a beast. Have your own way. Look away from me with your mother’s eyes."
". . . your fault," came a child’s voice, followed by other words that were chopped out by the howl of the sea wind, the roar of the waves.
". . . getting too loud. He’ll hear . . ." came Machen’s voice.
"Don’t care . . . I . . ." lost voices now.
I tried to stir, but then the tube of sleep, nourished by the brandy, came unclogged, and I descended down into richer blackness.
Was a bright morning full of sun, and no fog for a change. Cool clear out there on the landing, and the sea even seemed to roll in soft and bounce against the rocks and lighthouse like puffy cotton balls blown on the wind.
I was out there with my morning coffee, holding the cup in one hand and grasping the railing with the other. It was a narrow area but safe enough, provided you didn’t lean too far out or run along the walk when it was slick with rain. Machen told me of a man who had done just that and found himself plummeting over to be shattered like a dropped melon on the rocks below.
Machen came out with a cup of coffee in one hand, his unlit pipe in the other. He looked haggard this morning, as if a bit of old age had crept upon him in the night, fastened a straw to his face, and sucked out part of his substance.
"Morning," I said.
"Morning." He emptied his cup in one long draft. He balanced the cup on the metal railing and began to pack his pipe.
"Sleep bad?" I asked.
He looked at me, then at his pipe, finished his packing, and put the pouch away in his coat pocket. He took a long match from the same pocket, gave it fire with his thumbnail, lit the pipe. He puffed quite a while before he answered me.
"Not too well. Not too well."
"We drank too much."
"We did at that."
I sipped my coffee and looked at the sky, watched a snowy gull dive down and peck at the foam, rise up with a wriggling fish in its beak. It climbed high in the sky, became a speck of froth on the crystal blue..
"I had funny dreams," I said. "I think I’ve had them all along, since I came here. But last night they were stronger than ever."
"Oh?"
"Thought I heard your voice speaking to someone. Thought I heard steps on the stairs, or more like the plunking of peg legs, like those old sea captains have."
"You don’t say?"
"And another voice, a child’s."
‘That right? Well . . . maybe you did hear me speakin’. I wasn’t entirely straight with you last night. I do have quite an interest in the voice throwing, and I practice it from time to time on my dummy. Last night must have been louder than usual, being drunk and all."
"Dummy?"
"My old dummy from the act. Keep it in the room below."
"Could I see it?"
He grimaced. "Maybe another time. It’s kind of a private thing with me. Only bring her out when we’re alone."
"Her?"
"Right. Name’s Caroline, a right smart-looking girl dummy, rosy cheeked with blonde pigtails."
"Well, maybe someday I can look at her."
"Maybe someday." He stood up. popped the contents of the pipe out over the railing, and started inside. Then he turned: "I talk too much. Pay no mind to an old, crazy man."
Then he was gone, and I was there with a hot cup of coffee, a bright, warm day, and an odd, unexplained chill at the base of my bones.
Two days later we got on witches again, and I guess it was my fault. We hit the brandy hard that night. I had sold a short story for a goodly sum—my largest check to date—and we were celebrating and talking and saying how my fame would be as high as the stars. We got pretty sicky there, and to hear Machen tell it, and to hear me agree—no matter he hadn’t read the story—I was another Hemingway, Wolfe, and Fitzgerald all balled into one.
"If Marilyn were here," I said thoughtlessly, drunk, "why we could get her to consult her crystal and tell us my literary future."
"Why that’s nonsense, she used no crystal."
"No crystal, broom, or pointed hat? No eerie evil deeds for her? A white magician, no doubt?"
"Magic is magic, m’boy. And even good intentions can backfire."
"Whatever happened to her, Marilyn I mean?"
"Dead."
"Old age?"
"Died young and beautiful, m’boy. Grief killed her."
"I see," I said, as you’ll do to show attentiveness.
Suddenly, it was as if the memories were a balloon overloaded with air, about to burst if pressure were not taken off. So, he let loose the pressure and began to talk.
"She took her a lover, Marilyn did. Taught him many a thing, about love, magic, what have you. Lost her husband on account of it, the magician, I mean. Lost respect for herself in time.
"You see, there was this little girl she had, by her lover. A fine-looking sprite, lived until she was three. Had no proper father. He had taken to the sea and had never much entertained the idea of marryin’ Marilyn. Keep them stringing was his motto then, damn his eyes. So he left them to fend for themselves."
"What happened to the child?"
"She died. Some childhood disease."
"That’s sad," I said, "a little girl gone and having only sipped at life."
"Gone? Oh, no. There’s the soul, you know."
I wasn’t much of a believer in the soul and I said so.
"Oh, but there is a soul. The body perishes but the soul lives on."
"I’ve seen no evidence of it."
"But I have," Machen said solemnly. "Marilyn was determined that the girl would live on, if not in her own form, then in another."
"Hogwash!"
Machen looked at me sternly. "Maybe. You see, there is a part of witchcraft that deals with the soul, a part that believes the soul can be trapped and held, kept from escaping this earth and into the beyond. That’s why a lot of natives are superstitious about having their picture taken. They believe once their image is captured, through magic, their soul can be contained.
"Voodoo works much the same. It’s nothing but another form of witchcraft. Practitioners of that art believe their souls can be held to this earth by means of someone collecting nail parin’s or hair from them while they’re still alive.
"That’s what Marilyn had in mind. When she saw the girl was fadin’, she snipped one of the girl’s long pigtails and kept it to herself. Cast spells on it while the child lay dyin’, and again after life had left the child."
"The soul was supposed to be contained within the hair?"
"That’s right. It can be restored, in a sense, to some other object through the hair. It’s like those voodoo dolls. A bit of hair or nail parin’ is collected from the person you want to control, or if not control, maintain the presence of their soul, and it’s sewn into those dolls. That way, when the pins are stuck into the doll, the living suffer, and when they die their soul is trapped in the doll for all eternity, or rather as long as the doll with its hair or nail parin’s exists."
"So she preserved the hair so she could make a doll and have the little girl live on, in a sense?"
"Something like that."
"Sounds crazy."
"I suppose."
"And what of the little girl’s father?"
"Ah, that sonofabitch! He came home to find the little girl dead and buried and the mother mad. But there was that little gold lock of hair, and knowing Marilyn, he figured her intentions."
"Machen," I said slowly. "It was you, was it not? You were the father?"
"I was."
"I’m sorry."
"Don’t be. We were both foolish. I was the more foolish. She left her husband for me and I cast her aside. Ignored my own child. I was the fool, a great fool."
"Do you really believe in that stuff about the soul? About the hair and what Marilyn was doing?"
"Better I didn’t. A soul once lost from the body would best prefer to be departed I think . . . but love is sometimes a brutal thing."
We just sat there after that. We drank more. Machen smoked his pipe, and about an hour later we went to bed.
There were sounds again, gnawing at the edge of my sleep. The sounds that had always been there, but now, since we had talked of Marilyn, I was less able to drift off into blissful slumber. I kept thinking of those crazy things Machen had said. I remembered, too, those voices I had heard, and the fact that Machen was a ventriloquist, and perhaps, not altogether stable.
But those sounds.
I sat up and opened my eyes. They were coming from below. Voices. Machen’s first. ". . . not be the death of you, girl, not at all . . . my only reminder of Marilyn . . ."
And then to my horror. "Let me be, Papa. Let it end." The last had been a little girl’s voice, but the words had been bitter and wise beyond the youngness of the tone.
I stepped out of bed and into my trousers, crept to the curtain, and looked on Machen’s side.
Nothing, just a lonely cot. I wasn’t dreaming. I had heard him all right, and the other voice . . . it had to be that Machen, grieved over what he had done in the past, over Marilyn’s death, had taken to speaking to himself in the little girl’s voice. All that stuff Marilyn had told him about the soul, it had gotten to him, cracked his stability.
I climbed down the cold metal stairs, listening. Below I heard the old, weathered door that led outside slam. Heard the thud of boots going down the outside steps.
I went back up, went to the windows, and pulling back the curtains section by section, finally saw the old man. He was carrying something wrapped in a black cloth and he had a shovel in his hand. I watched as, out there by the shore, he dug a shallow grave and placed the cloth-wrapped object within, placed a rock over it, and left it to the night and the incoming tide.
I pretended to be asleep when he returned, and later, when I felt certain he was well visited by Morpheus, I went downstairs and retrieved the shovel from the tool room. I went out to where I had seen him dig and went to work, first turning over the large stone and shoveling down into the pebbly dirt. Due to the freshness of the hole, it was easy digging.
I found the cloth and what was inside. It made me flinch at first, it looked so real. I thought it was a little rosy cheeked girl buried alive, for it looked alive . . . but it was a dummy. A ventriloquist dummy. It had aged badly, as if water had gotten to it. In some ways it looked as if it were rotting from the inside out. My finger went easily and deeply into the wood of one of the legs.
Out of some odd curiosity, I reached up and pushed back the wooden eyelids. There were no wooden painted eyes, just darkness, empty sockets that uncomfortably reminded me of looking down into the black hollows of a human skull. And the hair. On one side of the head was a yellow pigtail, but where the other should have been was a bare spot, as if the hair had been ripped away from the wooden skull.
With a trembling hand I closed the lids down over those empty eyes, put the dirt back in place, the rock, and returned to bed. But I did not sleep well. I dreamed of a grown man talking to a wooden doll and using another voice to answer back, pretending that the doll lived and loved him too.
But the water had gotten to it, and the sight of those rotting legs had snapped him back to reality, dashed his insane hopes of containing a soul by magic, shocked him brutally from foolish dreams. Dead is dead.
The next day, Machen was silent and had little to say. I suspected the events of last night weighed on his mind. Our conversation must have returned to him this morning in sober memory, and he, somewhat embarrassed, was reluctant to recall it. He kept to himself down below in the locked room, and I busied myself with my work.
It was night when he came up, and there was a smug look about him, as if he had accomplished some great deed. We spoke a bit, but not of witches, of past times and the sea. Then he pulled back the curtains and looked at the moon rise above the water like a cold fish eye.
"Machen," I said, "maybe I shouldn’t say anything, but if you should ever have something bothering you. If you should ever want to talk about it . . . Well, feel free to come to me."
He smiled at me. "Thank you. But any problem that might have been bothering me is . . . shall we say, all sewn up."
We said little more and soon went to bed.
I slept sounder that night, but again I was rousted from my dreams by voices. Machen’s voice again, and the poor man speaking in that little child’s voice.
"It’s a fine home for you," Machen said in his own voice.
"I want no home," came the little girl’s voice. "I want to be free."
"You want to stay with me, with the living. You’re just not thinking. There’s only darkness beyond the veil."
The voices were very clear and loud. I sat up in bed and strained my ears.
"It’s where I belong," the little girl’s voice again, but it spoke not in a little girl manner. There was only the tone.
"Things have been bad lately," Machen said. "And you’re not yourself."
Laughter, horrible little girl laughter.
"I haven’t been myself for years."
"Now, Catherine . . . play your piano. You used to play it so well. Why, you haven’t touched it in years."
"Play. Play. With these!"
"You’re too loud."
"I don’t care. Let him hear, let him . . ."
A door closed sharply and the sound died off to a mumble; a word caught here and there was scattered and confused by the throb of the sea.
Next morning Machen had nothing for me, not even a smile from his borrowed collection. Nothing but coldness, his back, and a frown.
I saw little of him after coffee, and once, from below—for he stayed down there the whole day through—I thought I heard him cry in a loud voice, "Have it your way then," and then there was the sound of a slamming door and some other sort of commotion below.
After a while I looked out at the land and the sea, and down there, striding back and forth, hands behind his back, went Machen, like some great confused penguin contemplating the far shore.
I like to think there was something more than curiosity in what I did next. Like to think I was looking for the source of my friend’s agony; looking for some way to help him find peace.
I went downstairs and pulled at the door he kept locked, hoping that, in his anguish, he had forgotten to lock it back. He had not forgotten.
I pressed my ear against the door and listened. Was that crying I heard?
No. I was being susceptible, caught up in Machen’s fantasy. It was merely the wind whipping about the tower.
I went back upstairs, had coffee, and wrote not a line.
So day fell into night, and I could not sleep but finally got the strange business out of my mind by reading a novel. A rollicking good sea story of daring men and bloody battles, great ships clashing in a merciless sea.
And then, from his side of the curtain, I heard Machen creak off his cot and take to the stairs. One flight below was the door that led to the railing round about the tower, and I heard that open and close.
I rose, folded a small piece of paper into my book for a marker, and pulled back one of the window curtains. I walked around pulling curtains and looking until I could see him below.
He stood with his hands behind his back, looking out at the sea like a stern father keeping an eye on his children. Then, calmly, he mounted the railing and leaped out into the air.
I ran. Not that it mattered, but I ran , out to the railing . . . and looked down. His body looked like a rag doll splayed on the rocks.
There was no question in my mind that he was dead, but slowly I wound my way down the steps . . . and was distracted by the room. The door stood wide open.
I don’t know what compelled me to look in, but I was drawn to it. It was a small room with a desk and a lot of shelves filled with books, mostly occult and black magic. There were carpentry tools on the wall, and all manner of needles and devices that might be used by a tailor. The air was filled with an odd odor I could not place, and on Machen’s desk, something that was definitely not tobacco smoldered away.
There was another room beyond the one in which I stood. The door to it was cracked open. I pushed it back and stepped inside. It was a little child’s room filled thick with toys and such: jack-in-the-boxes, dolls, kid books, and a toy piano. All were covered in dust.
On the bed lay a teddy bear. It was ripped open and the stuffing was pulled out. There was one long strand of hair hanging out of that gutted belly, just one, as if it were the last morsel of a greater whole. It was the color of honey from a fresh-robbed hive. I knew what the smell in the ashtray was now.
I took the hair and put a match to it, just in case.
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Well . . . toys will be toys. Swing on by Thursday, June 3, when we celebrate the 300th update of The Orbit with a super-rare dose of vitamin Mojo from Dr. Champion Joe R. Lansdale!
"By the Hair of the Head" originally appeared in Shadows 6. It later appeared in Bestsellers Guaranteed, a collection published by Ace. "By the Hair of the Head" © 1983 Joe R. Lansdale. All Rights Reserved.
For Charlie Grant
The lighthouse was gray and brutally weathered, kissed each morning by a cold, salt spray. Perched there among the rocks and sand, it seemed a last, weak sentinel against an encroaching sea; a relentless, pounding surf that had slowly swallowed up the shoreline and deposited it in the all-consuming belly of the ocean.
Once the lighthouse had been bright-colored, candy-striped like a barber’s pole, with a high beacon light and a horn that honked out to the ships on the sea. No more. The lighthouse director, the last of a long line of sea watchers, had cashed in the job ten years back when the need died, but the lighthouse was now his and he lived there alone, bunked down nightly to the tune of the wind and the raging sea.
Below he had renovated the bottom of the tower and built rooms, and one of these he had locked away from all persons, from all eyes but his own.
I came there fresh from college to write my novel, dreams of being the new Norman Mailer dancing in my head. I rented in with him, as he needed a boarder to help him pay for the place, for he no longer worked and his pension was as meager as stale bread.
High up in the top was where we lived, a bamboo partition drawn between our cots each night, giving us some semblance of privacy, and dark curtains were pulled round the thick, foggy windows that traveled the tower completely around.
By day the curtains were drawn and the partition was pulled and I sat at my typewriter, and he, Howard Machen, sat with his book and his pipe, swelled the room of gray smoke the thickness of his beard. Sometimes he rose and went below, but he was always quiet and never disturbed my work.
It was a pleasant life. Agreeable to both of us. Mornings we had coffee outside on the little railed walkway and had a word or two as well, then I went to my work and he to his book, and at dinner we had food and talk and brandies; sometimes one, sometimes two, depending on mood and the content of our chatter.
We sometimes spoke of the lighthouse and he told me of the old days, of how he had shone that light out many times on the sea. Out like a great, bright fishing line to snag the ships and guide them in; let them follow the light in the manner that Theseus followed Ariadne’s thread.
"Was fine," he’d say. "That pretty old light flashing out there. Best job I had in all my born days. Just couldn’t leave her when she shut down, so I bought her."
"It is beautiful up here, but lonely at times."
"I have my company."
I took that as a compliment, and we tossed off another brandy. Any idea of my writing later I cast aside. I had done four good pages and was content to spit the rest of the day away in talk and dreams.
"You say this was your best job," I said as a way of conversation. "What did you do before this?"
He lifted his head and looked at me over the briar and its smoke. His eyes squinted against the tinge of the tobacco. "A good many things. I was born in Wales. Moved to Ireland with my family, was brought up there, and went to work there. Learned the carpentry trade from my father. Later I was a tailor. I’ve also been a mason—note the rooms I built below with my own two hands—and I’ve been a boat builder and a ventriloquist in a magician’s show."
"A ventriloquist?"
"Correct," he said, and his voice danced around me and seemed not to come from where he sat.
"Hey, that’s good."
"Not so good really. I was never good, just sort of fell into it. I’m worse now. No practice, but I’ve no urge to take it up again."
"I’ve an interest in such things."
"Have you now?"
"Yes."
"Ever tried a bit of voice throwing?"
"No. But it interests me. The magic stuff interests me more. You said you worked in a magician’s show?"
"That I did. I was the lead-up act."
"Learn any of the magic tricks, being an insider and all?"
"That I did, but that’s not something I’m interested in," he said flatly.
"Was the magician you worked for good?"
"Damn good, m’boy. But his wife was better."
"His wife?"
"Marilyn was her name. A beautiful woman." He winked at me. "Claimed to be a witch."
"You don’t say?"
"I do, I do. Said her father was a witch and she learned it and inherited it from him."
"Her father?"
"That’s right. Not just women can be witches. Men too." We poured ourselves another and exchanged sloppy grins, hooked elbows, and tossed it down.
"And another to meet the first," the old man said and poured. Then: "Here’s to company." We tossed it off.
"She taught me the ventriloquism, you know," the old man said, relighting his pipe.
"Marilyn?"
"Right. Marilyn."
"She seems to have been a rather all-around lady."
"She was at that. And pretty as an Irish morning."
"I thought witches were all old crones, or young crones. Hook noses, warts ..."
"Not Marilyn. She was a fine-looking woman. Fine bones, agate eyes that clouded in mystery, and hair the color of a fresh-robbed hive."
"Odd she didn’t do the magic herself. I mean, if she was the better magician, why was her husband the star attraction?"
"Oh, but she did do magic. Or rather she helped McDonald to look better than he was, and he was some good. But Marilyn was better.
"Those days were different. m’boy. Women weren’t the ones to take the initiative, least not openly. Kept to themselves. Was a sad thing. Back then it wasn’t thought fittin’ for a woman to be about such business. Wasn’t ladylike. Oh, she could get sawed in half, or disappear in a wooden crate, priss and look pretty, but take the lead? Not on your life!"
I fumbled myself another brandy. "A pretty witch, huh?"
"Ummmm."
"Had the old pointed hat and broom passed down, so to speak?" My voice was becoming slightly slurred.
"It’s not a laughin’ matter, m’boy." Machen clenched the pipe in his teeth.
"I’ve touched a nerve, have I not? I apologize. Too much sauce."
Machen smiled. "Not at all. It’s a silly thing, you’re right To hell with it."
"No, no, I’m the one who spoiled the fun. You were telling me she claimed to be the descendant of a long line of witches."
Machen smiled. It did not remind me of other smiles he had worn. This one seemed to come from a borrowed collection.
"Just some silly tattle is all. Don’t really know much about it, just worked for her, m’boy." That was the end of that. Standing, he knocked out his pipe on the concrete floor and went to his cot.
For a moment I sat there, the last breath of Machen’s pipe still in the air, the brandy still warm in my throat and stomach. I looked at the windows that surrounded the lighthouse, and everywhere I looked was my own ghostly reflection. It was like looking out through the compound eyes of an insect, seeing a multiple image.
I turned out the lights, pulled the curtains and drew the partition between our beds, wrapped myself in my blanket, and soon washed up on the distant shore of a recurring dream. A dream not quite in grasp, but heard like the far, fuzzy cry of a gull out from land.
It had been with me almost since moving into the tower. Sounds, voices . . .
A clunking noise like peg legs on stone . . . a voice, fading in, fading out . . . Machen’s voice, the words not quite clear, but soft and coaxing . . . then solid and firm: "Then be a beast. Have your own way. Look away from me with your mother’s eyes."
". . . your fault," came a child’s voice, followed by other words that were chopped out by the howl of the sea wind, the roar of the waves.
". . . getting too loud. He’ll hear . . ." came Machen’s voice.
"Don’t care . . . I . . ." lost voices now.
I tried to stir, but then the tube of sleep, nourished by the brandy, came unclogged, and I descended down into richer blackness.
Was a bright morning full of sun, and no fog for a change. Cool clear out there on the landing, and the sea even seemed to roll in soft and bounce against the rocks and lighthouse like puffy cotton balls blown on the wind.
I was out there with my morning coffee, holding the cup in one hand and grasping the railing with the other. It was a narrow area but safe enough, provided you didn’t lean too far out or run along the walk when it was slick with rain. Machen told me of a man who had done just that and found himself plummeting over to be shattered like a dropped melon on the rocks below.
Machen came out with a cup of coffee in one hand, his unlit pipe in the other. He looked haggard this morning, as if a bit of old age had crept upon him in the night, fastened a straw to his face, and sucked out part of his substance.
"Morning," I said.
"Morning." He emptied his cup in one long draft. He balanced the cup on the metal railing and began to pack his pipe.
"Sleep bad?" I asked.
He looked at me, then at his pipe, finished his packing, and put the pouch away in his coat pocket. He took a long match from the same pocket, gave it fire with his thumbnail, lit the pipe. He puffed quite a while before he answered me.
"Not too well. Not too well."
"We drank too much."
"We did at that."
I sipped my coffee and looked at the sky, watched a snowy gull dive down and peck at the foam, rise up with a wriggling fish in its beak. It climbed high in the sky, became a speck of froth on the crystal blue..
"I had funny dreams," I said. "I think I’ve had them all along, since I came here. But last night they were stronger than ever."
"Oh?"
"Thought I heard your voice speaking to someone. Thought I heard steps on the stairs, or more like the plunking of peg legs, like those old sea captains have."
"You don’t say?"
"And another voice, a child’s."
‘That right? Well . . . maybe you did hear me speakin’. I wasn’t entirely straight with you last night. I do have quite an interest in the voice throwing, and I practice it from time to time on my dummy. Last night must have been louder than usual, being drunk and all."
"Dummy?"
"My old dummy from the act. Keep it in the room below."
"Could I see it?"
He grimaced. "Maybe another time. It’s kind of a private thing with me. Only bring her out when we’re alone."
"Her?"
"Right. Name’s Caroline, a right smart-looking girl dummy, rosy cheeked with blonde pigtails."
"Well, maybe someday I can look at her."
"Maybe someday." He stood up. popped the contents of the pipe out over the railing, and started inside. Then he turned: "I talk too much. Pay no mind to an old, crazy man."
Then he was gone, and I was there with a hot cup of coffee, a bright, warm day, and an odd, unexplained chill at the base of my bones.
Two days later we got on witches again, and I guess it was my fault. We hit the brandy hard that night. I had sold a short story for a goodly sum—my largest check to date—and we were celebrating and talking and saying how my fame would be as high as the stars. We got pretty sicky there, and to hear Machen tell it, and to hear me agree—no matter he hadn’t read the story—I was another Hemingway, Wolfe, and Fitzgerald all balled into one.
"If Marilyn were here," I said thoughtlessly, drunk, "why we could get her to consult her crystal and tell us my literary future."
"Why that’s nonsense, she used no crystal."
"No crystal, broom, or pointed hat? No eerie evil deeds for her? A white magician, no doubt?"
"Magic is magic, m’boy. And even good intentions can backfire."
"Whatever happened to her, Marilyn I mean?"
"Dead."
"Old age?"
"Died young and beautiful, m’boy. Grief killed her."
"I see," I said, as you’ll do to show attentiveness.
Suddenly, it was as if the memories were a balloon overloaded with air, about to burst if pressure were not taken off. So, he let loose the pressure and began to talk.
"She took her a lover, Marilyn did. Taught him many a thing, about love, magic, what have you. Lost her husband on account of it, the magician, I mean. Lost respect for herself in time.
"You see, there was this little girl she had, by her lover. A fine-looking sprite, lived until she was three. Had no proper father. He had taken to the sea and had never much entertained the idea of marryin’ Marilyn. Keep them stringing was his motto then, damn his eyes. So he left them to fend for themselves."
"What happened to the child?"
"She died. Some childhood disease."
"That’s sad," I said, "a little girl gone and having only sipped at life."
"Gone? Oh, no. There’s the soul, you know."
I wasn’t much of a believer in the soul and I said so.
"Oh, but there is a soul. The body perishes but the soul lives on."
"I’ve seen no evidence of it."
"But I have," Machen said solemnly. "Marilyn was determined that the girl would live on, if not in her own form, then in another."
"Hogwash!"
Machen looked at me sternly. "Maybe. You see, there is a part of witchcraft that deals with the soul, a part that believes the soul can be trapped and held, kept from escaping this earth and into the beyond. That’s why a lot of natives are superstitious about having their picture taken. They believe once their image is captured, through magic, their soul can be contained.
"Voodoo works much the same. It’s nothing but another form of witchcraft. Practitioners of that art believe their souls can be held to this earth by means of someone collecting nail parin’s or hair from them while they’re still alive.
"That’s what Marilyn had in mind. When she saw the girl was fadin’, she snipped one of the girl’s long pigtails and kept it to herself. Cast spells on it while the child lay dyin’, and again after life had left the child."
"The soul was supposed to be contained within the hair?"
"That’s right. It can be restored, in a sense, to some other object through the hair. It’s like those voodoo dolls. A bit of hair or nail parin’ is collected from the person you want to control, or if not control, maintain the presence of their soul, and it’s sewn into those dolls. That way, when the pins are stuck into the doll, the living suffer, and when they die their soul is trapped in the doll for all eternity, or rather as long as the doll with its hair or nail parin’s exists."
"So she preserved the hair so she could make a doll and have the little girl live on, in a sense?"
"Something like that."
"Sounds crazy."
"I suppose."
"And what of the little girl’s father?"
"Ah, that sonofabitch! He came home to find the little girl dead and buried and the mother mad. But there was that little gold lock of hair, and knowing Marilyn, he figured her intentions."
"Machen," I said slowly. "It was you, was it not? You were the father?"
"I was."
"I’m sorry."
"Don’t be. We were both foolish. I was the more foolish. She left her husband for me and I cast her aside. Ignored my own child. I was the fool, a great fool."
"Do you really believe in that stuff about the soul? About the hair and what Marilyn was doing?"
"Better I didn’t. A soul once lost from the body would best prefer to be departed I think . . . but love is sometimes a brutal thing."
We just sat there after that. We drank more. Machen smoked his pipe, and about an hour later we went to bed.
There were sounds again, gnawing at the edge of my sleep. The sounds that had always been there, but now, since we had talked of Marilyn, I was less able to drift off into blissful slumber. I kept thinking of those crazy things Machen had said. I remembered, too, those voices I had heard, and the fact that Machen was a ventriloquist, and perhaps, not altogether stable.
But those sounds.
I sat up and opened my eyes. They were coming from below. Voices. Machen’s first. ". . . not be the death of you, girl, not at all . . . my only reminder of Marilyn . . ."
And then to my horror. "Let me be, Papa. Let it end." The last had been a little girl’s voice, but the words had been bitter and wise beyond the youngness of the tone.
I stepped out of bed and into my trousers, crept to the curtain, and looked on Machen’s side.
Nothing, just a lonely cot. I wasn’t dreaming. I had heard him all right, and the other voice . . . it had to be that Machen, grieved over what he had done in the past, over Marilyn’s death, had taken to speaking to himself in the little girl’s voice. All that stuff Marilyn had told him about the soul, it had gotten to him, cracked his stability.
I climbed down the cold metal stairs, listening. Below I heard the old, weathered door that led outside slam. Heard the thud of boots going down the outside steps.
I went back up, went to the windows, and pulling back the curtains section by section, finally saw the old man. He was carrying something wrapped in a black cloth and he had a shovel in his hand. I watched as, out there by the shore, he dug a shallow grave and placed the cloth-wrapped object within, placed a rock over it, and left it to the night and the incoming tide.
I pretended to be asleep when he returned, and later, when I felt certain he was well visited by Morpheus, I went downstairs and retrieved the shovel from the tool room. I went out to where I had seen him dig and went to work, first turning over the large stone and shoveling down into the pebbly dirt. Due to the freshness of the hole, it was easy digging.
I found the cloth and what was inside. It made me flinch at first, it looked so real. I thought it was a little rosy cheeked girl buried alive, for it looked alive . . . but it was a dummy. A ventriloquist dummy. It had aged badly, as if water had gotten to it. In some ways it looked as if it were rotting from the inside out. My finger went easily and deeply into the wood of one of the legs.
Out of some odd curiosity, I reached up and pushed back the wooden eyelids. There were no wooden painted eyes, just darkness, empty sockets that uncomfortably reminded me of looking down into the black hollows of a human skull. And the hair. On one side of the head was a yellow pigtail, but where the other should have been was a bare spot, as if the hair had been ripped away from the wooden skull.
With a trembling hand I closed the lids down over those empty eyes, put the dirt back in place, the rock, and returned to bed. But I did not sleep well. I dreamed of a grown man talking to a wooden doll and using another voice to answer back, pretending that the doll lived and loved him too.
But the water had gotten to it, and the sight of those rotting legs had snapped him back to reality, dashed his insane hopes of containing a soul by magic, shocked him brutally from foolish dreams. Dead is dead.
The next day, Machen was silent and had little to say. I suspected the events of last night weighed on his mind. Our conversation must have returned to him this morning in sober memory, and he, somewhat embarrassed, was reluctant to recall it. He kept to himself down below in the locked room, and I busied myself with my work.
It was night when he came up, and there was a smug look about him, as if he had accomplished some great deed. We spoke a bit, but not of witches, of past times and the sea. Then he pulled back the curtains and looked at the moon rise above the water like a cold fish eye.
"Machen," I said, "maybe I shouldn’t say anything, but if you should ever have something bothering you. If you should ever want to talk about it . . . Well, feel free to come to me."
He smiled at me. "Thank you. But any problem that might have been bothering me is . . . shall we say, all sewn up."
We said little more and soon went to bed.
I slept sounder that night, but again I was rousted from my dreams by voices. Machen’s voice again, and the poor man speaking in that little child’s voice.
"It’s a fine home for you," Machen said in his own voice.
"I want no home," came the little girl’s voice. "I want to be free."
"You want to stay with me, with the living. You’re just not thinking. There’s only darkness beyond the veil."
The voices were very clear and loud. I sat up in bed and strained my ears.
"It’s where I belong," the little girl’s voice again, but it spoke not in a little girl manner. There was only the tone.
"Things have been bad lately," Machen said. "And you’re not yourself."
Laughter, horrible little girl laughter.
"I haven’t been myself for years."
"Now, Catherine . . . play your piano. You used to play it so well. Why, you haven’t touched it in years."
"Play. Play. With these!"
"You’re too loud."
"I don’t care. Let him hear, let him . . ."
A door closed sharply and the sound died off to a mumble; a word caught here and there was scattered and confused by the throb of the sea.
Next morning Machen had nothing for me, not even a smile from his borrowed collection. Nothing but coldness, his back, and a frown.
I saw little of him after coffee, and once, from below—for he stayed down there the whole day through—I thought I heard him cry in a loud voice, "Have it your way then," and then there was the sound of a slamming door and some other sort of commotion below.
After a while I looked out at the land and the sea, and down there, striding back and forth, hands behind his back, went Machen, like some great confused penguin contemplating the far shore.
I like to think there was something more than curiosity in what I did next. Like to think I was looking for the source of my friend’s agony; looking for some way to help him find peace.
I went downstairs and pulled at the door he kept locked, hoping that, in his anguish, he had forgotten to lock it back. He had not forgotten.
I pressed my ear against the door and listened. Was that crying I heard?
No. I was being susceptible, caught up in Machen’s fantasy. It was merely the wind whipping about the tower.
I went back upstairs, had coffee, and wrote not a line.
So day fell into night, and I could not sleep but finally got the strange business out of my mind by reading a novel. A rollicking good sea story of daring men and bloody battles, great ships clashing in a merciless sea.
And then, from his side of the curtain, I heard Machen creak off his cot and take to the stairs. One flight below was the door that led to the railing round about the tower, and I heard that open and close.
I rose, folded a small piece of paper into my book for a marker, and pulled back one of the window curtains. I walked around pulling curtains and looking until I could see him below.
He stood with his hands behind his back, looking out at the sea like a stern father keeping an eye on his children. Then, calmly, he mounted the railing and leaped out into the air.
I ran. Not that it mattered, but I ran , out to the railing . . . and looked down. His body looked like a rag doll splayed on the rocks.
There was no question in my mind that he was dead, but slowly I wound my way down the steps . . . and was distracted by the room. The door stood wide open.
I don’t know what compelled me to look in, but I was drawn to it. It was a small room with a desk and a lot of shelves filled with books, mostly occult and black magic. There were carpentry tools on the wall, and all manner of needles and devices that might be used by a tailor. The air was filled with an odd odor I could not place, and on Machen’s desk, something that was definitely not tobacco smoldered away.
There was another room beyond the one in which I stood. The door to it was cracked open. I pushed it back and stepped inside. It was a little child’s room filled thick with toys and such: jack-in-the-boxes, dolls, kid books, and a toy piano. All were covered in dust.
On the bed lay a teddy bear. It was ripped open and the stuffing was pulled out. There was one long strand of hair hanging out of that gutted belly, just one, as if it were the last morsel of a greater whole. It was the color of honey from a fresh-robbed hive. I knew what the smell in the ashtray was now.
I took the hair and put a match to it, just in case.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well . . . toys will be toys. Swing on by Thursday, June 3, when we celebrate the 300th update of The Orbit with a super-rare dose of vitamin Mojo from Dr. Champion Joe R. Lansdale!
"By the Hair of the Head" originally appeared in Shadows 6. It later appeared in Bestsellers Guaranteed, a collection published by Ace. "By the Hair of the Head" © 1983 Joe R. Lansdale. All Rights Reserved.
5/27/04
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37/50
what does that mean?
Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
My personality is rated 37.
5/26/04
Have little butterflies in my heart. Why you ask? because I just sent out a thingy that people enter in their bday and it reminds me (i'm so bad at remembering) ... it's the same thing my friends Cindy and Kimbo sent me (Birthday Alram) ... I sent it to pretty much everyone in my address book on Yahoo... including one i NEVER thought would add their info...but he just did. I'm in a bit of shock right now is all. Aaron.
I was thinking about him the other day as a matter of fact. Remembering when I met him at Yale .... the night the world trade Center was bombed in 1993...wow! over 10 years ago! It was about the best week of my life for a long time. He was (and probably still is) so cute! And smart! Man I fell for him pretty hard back then. He even came here to visit me from Toronto. Good times. *sigh*
I'd love to see him again, but i've changed so much. I did get to see him in LA the last time i went out there (a few years back) we hung out...me him and Jayson... and he still looked good as ever. I'm sure I was a disappointment ...not being self depracating... just the last time he had seen me before that I was a dancer and about 50lbs lighter than when i went to LA.
But anyway.... i had a brief dream (before I met Kevin) that I would move to LA and start hosting karaoke out there and that Aaron and I would pick up where we left off and just end up madly happy with each other and live out at least a good potion of our lives together having a fabulous relationship and fabulous sex. I wish i could show you a pic of him...but I seem to have lost the only one i had which I snitched off his personal website I ran across a few years ago. It's probably buried in my other computer somewhere.
I'm probably gonna dream of him tonight. Just nice memories of what we were like. Man we were good together! Someday I'm sure we'll see each other again. even if i have to stalk him (j/k)
SWEET DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!
I was thinking about him the other day as a matter of fact. Remembering when I met him at Yale .... the night the world trade Center was bombed in 1993...wow! over 10 years ago! It was about the best week of my life for a long time. He was (and probably still is) so cute! And smart! Man I fell for him pretty hard back then. He even came here to visit me from Toronto. Good times. *sigh*
I'd love to see him again, but i've changed so much. I did get to see him in LA the last time i went out there (a few years back) we hung out...me him and Jayson... and he still looked good as ever. I'm sure I was a disappointment ...not being self depracating... just the last time he had seen me before that I was a dancer and about 50lbs lighter than when i went to LA.
But anyway.... i had a brief dream (before I met Kevin) that I would move to LA and start hosting karaoke out there and that Aaron and I would pick up where we left off and just end up madly happy with each other and live out at least a good potion of our lives together having a fabulous relationship and fabulous sex. I wish i could show you a pic of him...but I seem to have lost the only one i had which I snitched off his personal website I ran across a few years ago. It's probably buried in my other computer somewhere.
I'm probably gonna dream of him tonight. Just nice memories of what we were like. Man we were good together! Someday I'm sure we'll see each other again. even if i have to stalk him (j/k)
SWEET DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!
5/25/04
::KAVKAZ CENTER::news::facts::analysis
::KAVKAZ CENTER::news::facts::analysis: " C.I.A. cut Nick Berg's head off? The video of execution of American hostage Nick Berg in Iraq is threatening to develop into a major scandal. During a press conference the father of the beheaded American accused Bush and Rumsfeld of killing his son. There are more and more suspicions that Nick Berg was really executed not by Arab militants, but by the US intelligence services in order to divert the attention from the scandal about the tortures in Baghdad prison.
First there was a report that a video showing an execution of an American expert captured in Iraq was shown on a so-called 'Islamic extremist' website. It was reported that the execution was carried out by a group of guerillas tied to Al-Qaeda in order to take revenge for the tortures that the American soldiers did to Iraqi inmates.
The video shows five men, whose faces are hidden behind black masks and traditional Arab scarves. They all are standing around a tied-up man with an orange suit on, the kind of suit inmates wear. The victim says to the camera: «My name is Nick Berg, my father’s name is Michael, my mother’s name is Susan. I have a brother and a sister, David and Sarah. I live in Philadelphia».
After these words they got him down on the floor, put a big knife to his throat and cut his head off, while screaming 'Allah Akbar' ('God is Great'). The video footage was called «Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi shows killing of an American». A day before the video was shown, Mr. Berg’s parents were told that their son’s body was found near a highway in Baghdad. The scene of the execution and the comments on it were the number one news in the world’s mass media for some time.
Then the CIA experts released a statement saying that Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi was the man in mask who beheaded the US citizen Nick Berg in front of a camera. Then Western commentators and moralists took over and launched a campaign to vindicate the Americans exposed for torturing Iraqi inmates.
Compared to the brutal murder of an American with cutting his head off, the tortures of Iraqis in prisons started looking like minor pranks of undisciplined soldiers. Another factor was that the beheaded victim was a Jew, which was picked up by the Zionists immediately to justify their actions and to show what kind of enemy they have to be dealing with.
However, so many questions arose about the videotape that all accusers of so-called 'Islamists' got quiet right away and the subject disappeared from the agenda in the world’s media.
Many questions came up, and they are all pointing out that the accusations by Mr. Berg’s father against the US authorities on killing his son have very serious grounds.
The first suspicion was caused by a video where Berg was wearing an orange American jail suit. Berg was arrested by the Americans and had time to tell his friend that he was in an American prison. Intelligence services were denying this and were saying that Berg was arrested by the Iraqi police for Israeli stamps in his passport. But later on it turned out that he was questioned by Americans, and FBI agents came to his parents’ house to find out whether he was involved in any terrorist activities.
Berg’s e-mail showed that he was held in custody by the Americans. Turned out that an American was held in an American prison and beheaded right after he was presumably released.
In this connection there is a question whether the American was released from prison at all. If he was, and if he was late for his flight because of the arrest, as his parents first claimed, then why he ended up being captured by 'terrorists' and dressed in an American jail suit? How would militants even get a suit like this in the first place, and why would they make their hostage put it on?
The experts who saw the video say that the man posing as Jordanian native Zarqawi does not speak the Jordanian dialect. Zarqawi has an artificial leg, but none of these murderers did. The man presented as Zarqawi had a yellow ring, presumably a golden one, which Muslim men are banned from wearing, especially so-called fundamentalists.
The experts mentioned that the man calls Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) 'Gracious Prophet', while it is only Allah, Whom Muslims call 'Gracious'.
More and more questions are coming up about Mr. Berg’s murder and some of them have already been presented to the country’s leadership by the American public.
But major American mass media, which support the war in Iraq, are ignoring this information.
Infowars.com published the material titled «This is a 98 % secret US operation». The chair that Nick Berg was sitting on before the execution was the same as the chairs in Abu-Ghraib prison, where tortures were being committed. These chairs were brought by the US army. It was also reported that even though Nick Berg was a civilian, for some reason his body was delivered to a US Air Force base in Dover, where the dead servicemen are brought.
Meanwhile more and more new circumstances are being revealed when the video is being studied. The doctors are saying that there is almost no blood shown during the beheading, while normally a lot of blood would have been gushing if the person were alive. No blood was seen around it or on the hands of the one who cut the head off. Then it must have been a dead person who was beheaded.
All militants filmed on the video footage are too fat for the Iraqi standards, especially for militants, and they all had white palms of their hands. When the video was studied it turned out that the scream shown in this footage was recorded earlier and it was probably a woman’s scream.
The weapons that the murderers were holding in their hands resemble AKs, but the experts claim that this is a modified AK-47, Israeli-made Halil.
All Islamic organizations, including the ones accused of terrorism, have condemned this act. Nothing has been heard about Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi for the past few months, and there has been a rumor going on that he died in a bombing.
If he did take part in beheading the American and wanted to make it known this way (even the video was called «Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi shows killing of an American»), then why did he need to put a mask on or close his face with a scarf?
But if he has nothing to do with it, and somebody decided to use his name, then it would be quite natural to expect Zarqawi to deny the allegations about his involvement in Mr. Berg’s execution. But no denials have been heard. Especially when such a denial would have been appropriate after all Islamic organizations and the Iraqis condemned this murder.
This fact means that Zarqawi may not be alive. Those who put on that show knew that Zarqawi could no longer deny whatever they accuse him of.
Will the US government be able to deny what Mr. Berg’s parents and the public are accusing it of? Probably, the experts, who manage to find Arab passports and the Holy Koran under a tumbled-down and melted skyscraper, will make something up this time as well? If they don’t, they you should expect some new movies and new terrorist acts to be made by the joint effort of Hollywood and the CIA.
Sirajin Sattayev,
for Kavkaz-Center
2004-05-19 00:05:37
First there was a report that a video showing an execution of an American expert captured in Iraq was shown on a so-called 'Islamic extremist' website. It was reported that the execution was carried out by a group of guerillas tied to Al-Qaeda in order to take revenge for the tortures that the American soldiers did to Iraqi inmates.
The video shows five men, whose faces are hidden behind black masks and traditional Arab scarves. They all are standing around a tied-up man with an orange suit on, the kind of suit inmates wear. The victim says to the camera: «My name is Nick Berg, my father’s name is Michael, my mother’s name is Susan. I have a brother and a sister, David and Sarah. I live in Philadelphia».
After these words they got him down on the floor, put a big knife to his throat and cut his head off, while screaming 'Allah Akbar' ('God is Great'). The video footage was called «Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi shows killing of an American». A day before the video was shown, Mr. Berg’s parents were told that their son’s body was found near a highway in Baghdad. The scene of the execution and the comments on it were the number one news in the world’s mass media for some time.
Then the CIA experts released a statement saying that Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi was the man in mask who beheaded the US citizen Nick Berg in front of a camera. Then Western commentators and moralists took over and launched a campaign to vindicate the Americans exposed for torturing Iraqi inmates.
Compared to the brutal murder of an American with cutting his head off, the tortures of Iraqis in prisons started looking like minor pranks of undisciplined soldiers. Another factor was that the beheaded victim was a Jew, which was picked up by the Zionists immediately to justify their actions and to show what kind of enemy they have to be dealing with.
However, so many questions arose about the videotape that all accusers of so-called 'Islamists' got quiet right away and the subject disappeared from the agenda in the world’s media.
Many questions came up, and they are all pointing out that the accusations by Mr. Berg’s father against the US authorities on killing his son have very serious grounds.
The first suspicion was caused by a video where Berg was wearing an orange American jail suit. Berg was arrested by the Americans and had time to tell his friend that he was in an American prison. Intelligence services were denying this and were saying that Berg was arrested by the Iraqi police for Israeli stamps in his passport. But later on it turned out that he was questioned by Americans, and FBI agents came to his parents’ house to find out whether he was involved in any terrorist activities.
Berg’s e-mail showed that he was held in custody by the Americans. Turned out that an American was held in an American prison and beheaded right after he was presumably released.
In this connection there is a question whether the American was released from prison at all. If he was, and if he was late for his flight because of the arrest, as his parents first claimed, then why he ended up being captured by 'terrorists' and dressed in an American jail suit? How would militants even get a suit like this in the first place, and why would they make their hostage put it on?
The experts who saw the video say that the man posing as Jordanian native Zarqawi does not speak the Jordanian dialect. Zarqawi has an artificial leg, but none of these murderers did. The man presented as Zarqawi had a yellow ring, presumably a golden one, which Muslim men are banned from wearing, especially so-called fundamentalists.
The experts mentioned that the man calls Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) 'Gracious Prophet', while it is only Allah, Whom Muslims call 'Gracious'.
More and more questions are coming up about Mr. Berg’s murder and some of them have already been presented to the country’s leadership by the American public.
But major American mass media, which support the war in Iraq, are ignoring this information.
Infowars.com published the material titled «This is a 98 % secret US operation». The chair that Nick Berg was sitting on before the execution was the same as the chairs in Abu-Ghraib prison, where tortures were being committed. These chairs were brought by the US army. It was also reported that even though Nick Berg was a civilian, for some reason his body was delivered to a US Air Force base in Dover, where the dead servicemen are brought.
Meanwhile more and more new circumstances are being revealed when the video is being studied. The doctors are saying that there is almost no blood shown during the beheading, while normally a lot of blood would have been gushing if the person were alive. No blood was seen around it or on the hands of the one who cut the head off. Then it must have been a dead person who was beheaded.
All militants filmed on the video footage are too fat for the Iraqi standards, especially for militants, and they all had white palms of their hands. When the video was studied it turned out that the scream shown in this footage was recorded earlier and it was probably a woman’s scream.
The weapons that the murderers were holding in their hands resemble AKs, but the experts claim that this is a modified AK-47, Israeli-made Halil.
All Islamic organizations, including the ones accused of terrorism, have condemned this act. Nothing has been heard about Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi for the past few months, and there has been a rumor going on that he died in a bombing.
If he did take part in beheading the American and wanted to make it known this way (even the video was called «Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi shows killing of an American»), then why did he need to put a mask on or close his face with a scarf?
But if he has nothing to do with it, and somebody decided to use his name, then it would be quite natural to expect Zarqawi to deny the allegations about his involvement in Mr. Berg’s execution. But no denials have been heard. Especially when such a denial would have been appropriate after all Islamic organizations and the Iraqis condemned this murder.
This fact means that Zarqawi may not be alive. Those who put on that show knew that Zarqawi could no longer deny whatever they accuse him of.
Will the US government be able to deny what Mr. Berg’s parents and the public are accusing it of? Probably, the experts, who manage to find Arab passports and the Holy Koran under a tumbled-down and melted skyscraper, will make something up this time as well? If they don’t, they you should expect some new movies and new terrorist acts to be made by the joint effort of Hollywood and the CIA.
Sirajin Sattayev,
for Kavkaz-Center
2004-05-19 00:05:37
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