Once upon a time, when I was about 8 or 10 years old, I tried to kill myself. I snick downstairs in the middle of the night and took 6 of every pill that was on the kitchen windowsill above the kitchen sink. I then made my way back upstairs to my room and locked myself in my closet.
fortunately (or unfortunately as the case may be ) the pills I took were vitamins and supplements. They did no bodily harm. And I spent all night sleeping in the closet in my room upstairs.
this was the first time, but not the last.