i finally woke back up. I gotta call my cousin and apologize today. I feel like such a heel. I know my beef with him is real, but i also know that it's not all him I'm angry with. It's my whole darn family & i need Help in dealing with that. Who knows. Maybe writing will help me be better. & maybe whoever reads this will just get tired of my whining & tell me to shut up & deal with it. ;)